Monday, May 12, 2014

I don't know how...

as Mother's Day approached I kept asking myself,
"how am I supposed to do this?
how am I supposed to feel? 
how do I celebrate this first one without my Mom?"

truthfully, walking through that  
Hallmark card section was tough. 
picturing that traditional
 "moms-get-a-rose-at-church-service" was tough.

grace. grace. grace.
the weekend I semi dreaded was full of grace.
my amazing husband arranged for our family
to spend the weekend in Tennessee.
no phones.
no tv.
no computer.
we had one God-moment after another.
we laughed. a lot.
we played. a lot.
we rested. a lot.
the Father met me in my deep places
of grief too. He's so tender.


I saw my Mom too - 

in Alison, whose quick wit can  
make me laugh like no other.
in Erin, whose uncanny sensitivity catches me off
guard & makes me feel so loved & seen.
in Quinn,  who loves drama, of any kind.
and in Gracie, who is so generous
with her affection.

Mother's Day was different this year.
the first one without my precious Mom 
was cushioned with good memories,
a kind husband who has faithfully walked some tough
 places with me over the last nine months,
and my little treasures who made me a Mom myself.

Isaiah 40:11
"He tends His flock like a shepherd:
He gathers the lambs in His arms
and carries them close to His heart;
He gently leads those that have young."







Wednesday, December 25, 2013


Come, Thou long expected Jesus
Born to set Thy people free
From our sins and fears release us
Let us find our rest in Thee
Israel's strength and consolation
Hope of all the earth Thou art
Dear desire of every nation
Joy of every longing heart!


Thursday, September 26, 2013

la birthday pics

when the birthday boy wants 
authentic fish & chips...

while one waits for said fish & chips


Ali showed up downtown to
surprise her favorite brother!



a wise old sage reflecting
on 12 years of life




and there was great air soft rejoicing in the land



Tuesday, September 24, 2013

twelve

he went right ahead...
he did it...
he turned 12 today.
where have the years gone?!

happy, happy, happy birthday to our
sweet
handsome
sensitive
funny
smart
dependable
compassionate
tough
loving
brave
witty
Spirit-filled
Quinn

we thank Father today for the gift of YOU,
& pray His richest blessings and  
loving hand over you today.
we love you Quinn Samuel!!!!!

Saturday, June 29, 2013

4 years!

can't believe it's been 4 years
  since we met our baby girl!

this calls for some
Yang-Yang crispy beef

dry fried green beans

oyster chicken & bok choy

and the guest of honor!
HAPPY GOTCHA DAY Gracie Shu!!!


Tuesday, June 18, 2013

no packing required...

our family is going on a mission trip this summer.
all 6 of us.
even the pets.
no luggage, no travel shots, no motion sickness bags.
in fact, we're not leaving home...

see this sweet face?
  
we have the honor of hosting this little
guy from China for 6 weeks
through an amazing organization
called New Horizons for Children.

over 70 orphaned boys & girls will
be coming to stay in Christian homes in
 the US from July 9 -Aug. 16.


some of the main goals...

"to learn about God, experience His love & realize they
have a Father Who loves them"
"to provide an educational/cultural experience"
"to show them unconditional love & acceptance"
"to introduce adoptable children to families &
hopefully find their forever family"
hmmmm....more on that later :)

this has been no small undertaking in many ways.
we don't take this lightly, & we are beyond excited!

would you pray for us?!
financially, emotionally, and most importantly,
that Father's love would be overflowing in our home.

"a thief is only there to steal and kill and destroy.
I came so they can have real and eternal life,
more and better life than they ever dreamed of."
John 10:10

Sunday, June 2, 2013